beckyx0

Well I've been so different lately compared what I've been like a lot before. I used to be depressed, not eating enough, and now I'm perfectly fine. Of course I have my moments but I'm doing really good. I'm only behind on one subject in school, but who the hell needs global anyways?

Anyways, I've just been thinking, I've really came to a decision about a lot of things. I really make effort to talk to people that don't really talk to me that much anymore. And I've came to a conclusion that if they really care about me and want to be in my life then they will make effort to communicate and spend time with me, if not...well then oh well you blew your chance. =/

I sitll have those moments where I feel like I'm not good enough. And I wonder... what the hell is so great about blondes? I know, my boyfriend tells me I'm perfect just the way I am and everything and he really likes me for who I am but whenever he  sees a ''hot blonde'' on tv, he always says something and if he doesn't say anything I know he's thinking it. I know I shouldn't gripe over it but I'm just curious, what is so great about blondes?

And another thing is, I was worried about people trying to take my boyfriend away from me but I'm not really worried anymore. Like my jealousy was so uncontrolling but I've came to realize, I still don't understand why but my boyfriend has eyes for me and only me, even if he is ''friendly''. I trust him and I hope I don't regret it. I've trusted people before and I've got screwed over multiple times.

I've changed my outlook on life, and I know what I want out of life. I am pretty much happy and I don't really need anything else. I have an amazing boyfriend who wants to spend the rest of his life with me and is crazy about me, I've finally found out what love is and its amazing, I'm a lot happier and I'm finally doing well and on my own two feet.

This year is going great... much better than last year, and lets hope it stays like that.

"I've finally reached happiness..."

Well I have never felt like this before. It's something so unexplainable.. I have finally found what true love is. This past month and a half I've been the happiest girl in the world. I have found the most amazing guy I could ever ask for. He is perfect, he listens to me and makes me want to be a better person. Being this happy has changed me so much and made me look at so many things differently.

I have been more energetic, outgoing, and smiling a lot more. Sure I have my moments, but in the end I couldn't ask for a better feeling...

I'm really starting to fall in love...with life.